February 2012
1 post
Wow
Tumblr doesn’t suck when its not on a Blackberry!
Feb 22nd
January 2012
13 posts
Everything's changin'
Today should be interesting, as I plan on starting the ball rolling. I’m not entirely sure how to feel. I am definitely more than a little scared, but I know that it is what is right by me. My hope is that it will be mostly positive and not turn ugly. One can only hope. I’ve allowed myself a little hope these days, it keeps me from hitting the lowest of lows. It’s more than...
Jan 31st
Jan 29th
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Jan 27th
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on the bench
Already, just the chauffeur. The cash flow. I wonder if I stopped having money, if I would just get kicked out. I hate that every other person in this house is memememememe. Shit my mom finds out I’ve been going to therapy, and by the end of the day, its still all about her. Just make sure I don’t take too long at therapy because I have to take her somewhere. I just want to...
Jan 26th
So one cat is out of the bag...
…since you can only hide having to be in a specific place at a specific time for so long. Maybe its better that way. Things happen for a reason and its probably for the best. Even if it makes things awkward I guess it starts to prove that I’m not happy…
Jan 25th
But really...
..who needs sleep when you have anxiety??
Jan 25th
Full of $#!+
It’s what my head is. I feel like I’m in a constant state of fear or panic. What the hell is wrong with me? If loving me is wrong, I don’t want to be right. It feels alien to me. I know it’s what I have to do to preserve my sanity, but I also know it won’t be seen that way. I’m scared on so many levels it’s ridiculous. There has to be something...
Jan 25th
tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?
Jan 24th
Everything's Changin'
It really is hard to make out the forest from the trees. I imagine that, instead of being overwhelmed by the trees, you have to take it one tree at a time, and when you get to the end, you can walk away, turn around, and discover the forest. I also imagine that the old saying “take life one day at a time” is a lot like that as well. Maybe, when stuck in the middle, if you take it...
Jan 24th
Walls
Boundaries are fun.  You need to build them up around some people, and you want to tear them down for others.  I think a lead curtain may be more useful.  A curtain with a crane.
Jan 24th
Here I go again.
Ever do something you had a feeling you were going to regret, but you did it anyway because it still seemed like the right thing to do? I’m standing on the edge of that cliff right now. I think it will work out in the end to my advantage, and honestly, right now, everything that I do to try to better myself is going to rock the boat. Here’s to hoping I can make this one work to my...
Jan 18th
Jan 16th
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...and so it begins
Even though I’m not quite sure what “it” is, “it” is starting here, now. I’m sure this will turn into something that falls into multiple categories, and no category at all.  We shall see. Follow at your own risk. :)
Jan 16th